aku menyampah dengar lagu senyum. pekejadah entah.

by now. aku tak mandi LAGI. the truth.internet agak semput. reached college around 6.30 and yet i didn't take a bath YET. smsed a friend and told her that my father had an accident. i'm a bit heartless on that.

heartless. my friend always call me that. somehow, i do have feelings. i'm no android. i'm a human being.

yesterday i saw a procedure that made me wanted to vomit and also loss of appetite. meremang bulu tengkuk aku tengok doctor tu insert forceps dalam tangan patient. auwww.auww. macam korek jarum dalam daging. nasib letak Local Anesthetic (LA). atau lemen called as bius. LA ni function dia bagi kebas saraf. even dr tu korek.korek tangan kau. you'll not feel the pain. you'll feel the pressure. sebab tu aku cakap *nasib baik letak LA* sebab aku ada jumpa procedure yang guna blade but let the patient feel the pain. sakit doe kena potong pakai pisau tapi tak letak bius. aku yang tengok pun sakit. apatah lagi yang kena.

the clinical time was a blast. and double exhausted too. but i'm enjoying myself at hospital ampang anyway. :)
the Medical Assistant was super cool enough. ha.ha. abg MA. you got double credit here. and also their PK, Jururawat Masyarakat (JM) and staffnurses and not forgotten their doctors. they gave us the opportunity to see a lot of procedures that rarely been seen in ward. and guide us to do correctly during the procedures.

dear KAU. don't let me know your feelings. i do feel a bit uncomfortable. i'm not used to it. i can't show what i feel. it's not just a word. but the feelings it takes. i don't want to feel the pain. somehow. i THINK i've fall on you. let we be like this. :))




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